I'm having a pity party...wanna come?

1. elijah woke up at 5:30 this morning because he had overflowed his pull up... onto my bed.
2. elijah refused to go back to sleep and at 6:15 i thought maybe he would at least be quiet and still if the tv was on... he threw a fit because "his tv" wasn't on.
3. i refused to move to feed my child until 7, because that is when we wake up dammit!
4. he didn't the food i made him.
5. grace and jerry slept until almost 8 but then jerry had to go to work... on a sunday...the day after halloween...
6. i am exhausted from pushing the stroller up and down the roads taking grace out every time and then having to pry her away from any house that had a freaking dog...
7. i also realized that i forgot to eat dinner last night... i realized this at 3 in the morning when elijah woke me up whimpering from a bad dream.
8. stupid daylight savings time.
9. it was supposed to be cool outside today... it was not.
10. after a bike ride we went to play in the back yard and elijah had a break down because grace wanted to swing and not play boat.
11. jerry's work is not making sense to me right now.
12. i missed my mom's call because i was changing a stinky diaper in a toy store (on the up side, they provided both wipes and diaper... kinda cool.)
13. neither child slept well at nap hence me missing my mom's second call.
14. elijah had melt down after melt down because he was exhausted and it made me want to throw things.
15. i am having a bad mom day.
16. grace has started to copy everything that elijah does... sometimes this is endearing and cute, when she is copying a tantrum, not so much... (see #14)
17. i am having a bad friend week.  i often wonder if my friends get bored with me, or if i am just to spineless to stand up for myself.  i'm very self centered this way, but honestly look at the damn post to see that this is about me, so get over it.
18. i called jerry home from work because i didn't want to be a mom anymore today.  i got to take a shower by myself and felt a smidgen better...
19. i sometimes feel like i don't understand jerry's work enough for him to enjoy talking to me about it and that he would rather talk to his friends about it... again... read the title....
20. i miss my folks and i wish they were closer so i could have curled up in a ball somewhere today and had a good cry... this will have to suffice tonight.

on a good note, the kids fell asleep quickly (only upside to DLST), national treasure is on (such a bad movie), and i have a pile of bit-o-honey left over from last night's trick or treating...so life is looking up...